Last.

You have never failed to disappoint me. It’s not that you are not meeting my expectations, you are totally not even meeting the mark for being a normal boyfriend.

And to think that I actually have to even voice this out to you. What a joke. Yes, you should go and reflect how 失败 that is. I don’t know how long I can take this anymore. It’s really just a matter of time that we go our own courses if you are not going to put me in your no. 1 on everything that I should be. Coz I won’t take all these that you are giving me. Im giving you one last chance and I’m losing my patience.

Thanks.

Sleep and sleep and sleep. I’m just never the first.

It’s not your fault coz you are the one who didn’t caused it. Might as well say he’s my bf and not you.

Vow to myself.

From now onwards, I’ll learn my very best to conceal all my emotions. I’ll not show any signs of hurt, disappointments and anger. And I’ll make sure you won’t be able to see through this facade.

Yes, it’s true when people says no one can be trusted. I’m never going to open my heart to anyone, ever again. I’ll keep that in mind.

Will you find me?

Maybe.

If you ever want me to remove that “barrier” that you think I have within me, perhaps you can first start by putting aside both your ego and your pride while you are with me.

I wonder.

What’s behind that facade? Behind every arguments, every disagreements, have we ever, ever come to a settlement or a compromise exactly?

If you ever did, did you do it out of willingness, because you love me and thus accepted it or just because you can’t see the point of arguing anymore?

I don’t know what’s real anymore. I don’t know your every apology, your every “it’s my fault”- I guess it’s just a lie. I don’t know if I can continue with this, to pretend that I don’t know a thing.

And if I can, I don’t know how long it will last.

Bah.

The best way to avoid disappointments is not to have any expectations at all.

Choices

Life is full of choices. You chose the route you wanna take, and the best you can make out of it is not to live with regrets.

I will do my atmost best to live up to my own expectations. And of coz, never to look back with regrets ever again.

Goddamn.

I can’t stop thinking about you. Your smile, your jokes, everything.

 

You are probably the first person ever who ever met my gaze and I don’t want to look away. No, I just find it so bloody hard to.

 

 

Oh what the fuck??!

I was browsing through the web looking for reviews on a certain facial product and I chanced upon this article:

 

http://www.bestacnetreatmentstips.com/articles/137/1/Is-Sperm-the-Cure-for-Acne/Page1.html

 

Holy muthafucker. How can anyone find it NOT gross, seriously?!!?

 

Oh yea. Happy Chinese New Year, folks. HUATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT AH!